You Don’t Know Me (and Really, You Shouldn’t)

When last we left our intrepid blogstress and Unnatural Creature, she was breathing lightning and brimstone and being ridiculously vague about why except that it was a Gordian knot-level of mess including thoughts on Twitter toxicity, marketing, societal acceptability and authenticity. That incoherent mess is here if you want to check it out.

What has been going on in the meanwhile? I caught COVID for starters (apparently “I-wish-for-death” level stomach pains are a Covid symptom) and spent roughly two weeks cursing literally everything in creation. I updated this site with another Zine page, that has links to a few of the one-off, more random zines I’ve done. I have another zine in the works, but it’s been s-l-o-w going since A) this time of year is a cluster of family traditions (that I traditionally try to weasel out of) and birthdays, so it’s busy and B) I’ve been working around some nasty mental/emotional stuff that’s popped up along side my renewed effort to start crafting stories again.

So, there’s been a lot of emotional processing going on for me about creativity, self-worth, productivity, family bonds, wellness, balance and all the polite ways to tell someone “What are we to each other? Because it feels like; nothing.”

Fall and Winter are great seasons for me. For whatever reason (call it my special astrological signature or that I’m a Myers-Briggs INFP or that I’ve been disabled since my 20’s with the grisly specter of Death overshadowing everything I do), I’m frequently in existential crisis mode. And by “frequent”, I mean almost constantly. But in the Fall and Winter (especially after the horrid holiday season), there’s less demands and I can focus a little easier on figuring out where to go next. Usually, my musings are focused on myself, but the rise of right-wing insanity, the continuing Covid fuck-up on top of the already massive existing pile of crap people have to put up with…it’s had me digging deeper into the connections I have with people in my life, what those connections actually mean and if I can be bothered to put any work into trying to make them mean more.

While this is a personal blog, I usually waffle on how much detail to spill since it’s not really my intention to heap more angst onto an already angst-heavy world, so I’ll keep the specifics sparse for now.

Anyway, there are some other things my brain is chewing on:

• Addressing how my time on Twitter has absolutely ruined my sense of creative safety and concocting some ideas around a “Twitter rehab” to try and reverse that
• Got some awesome new art supplies that I’m dying to play around with – including a custom lamp-making kit
• NEW YEAR PLANNING! There’s something really refreshing about a fresh new year (even if it is lugging around the same tired shit of years past) and planning some kind of fresh, new start.

Now darlings, do you have any winter plans? Any holiday venting you care to do? Comment box is right there.